"Friend is a Four Letter Word"

This weekend I decided that I am officially throwing in the towel when it comes to the two male prospects in my life. I would like to say that I am doing it because I want to focus on my career, have some time for myself, learn a new hobby, or some other admirable reason, but the truth is while each scenario has its own reason, they are much more shallow!

I met Mr. Michigan through a friend of a friend, and while I have suspicions that he may be slightly interested, I just don't have the energy with this one for the typical games we play. I suspect that my lack of energy and not even remotely feeling butterflies in my stomach at the mention of his name may be due to the fact that deep down, I am "just not that into him." I think I am more excited about the prospect of having someone than being with him, and I value his friendship too much to try something. I did decide, to quote a work acquaintance, to pimp him out to my sister. I think they are more along the same wavelengths, and why not keep him in the family! Plus I decided that I would rather be alone than be with someone for the wrong reasons (I know a certain future-therapist friend is jumping for joy right now after that statement).

Saturday night, I spent a fabulous girls' night with one of my sorority sisters, where we decided that Mr. Emotionally Unavailable just really wasn't that fun of a nickname. We decided to rename him the Pathetic Taken Asshole, or PTA for short. This was brought about by my deciding that my feelings for this particular guy are just simply too strong to only be friends. I came about this realization while reading an e-mail from another AOII on Thursday comparing women to apples. The e-mail stated that the best apples are often found at the top of the tree, but often men are content to settle for the lower apples because they are afraid to climb. As I sat at the computer shedding a few tears, I realized that he just isn't a climber and is content to settle and that I want someone who will climb for me! In reviewing the matter with a few members of my support group (because let's face it, I have been practically addicted to this guy), it was decided that I should try to limit the "friend" contact and keep things mostly professional until I can really move on.

I feel as though I have grown this weekend, but I am sure it will all change as soon as a new boy enters the picture! Sometimes it is just so hard to teach a girl new tricks when a boy is involved!

"Cold Beverage"

Last night happened to be the birthday of one of my amazing friends. It also happened to be the night that The Breakfast Club was in town, so we decided to go to the show. I also did not have to drive (a rare occurrence I know) thanks to one of my other amazing friends. I was also planning to meet up with some other friends at the bar. One of these friends happens to be a boy, who I'll call Mr. Michigan, that I met through another friend.

Several of my friends have been telling me to go for things with Mr. Michigan since my birthday in January based on the fact that we look so cute together. I'm not necessarily opposed to the idea, as we always have a fabulous time together, but there are issues that certainly complicate the situation (I know what you are thinking here, but he actually broke up with his girlfriend in March so that is no longer one of the issues). Perhaps the biggest reason I haven't gone for it yet is that I honestly can't tell if he is into me. Take last night for example, he went up to the bar on the roof with his friends, but when I couldn't get up there because of the long line, he left his friends to come back and find me. Also, as we were standing there watching the band, whenever I would move slightly away from him even if it was just to say something to one of my friends, he would watch me to see where I was going. In my opinion, these signs point to the fact that he may be interested in me, but then when we went to leave I got the same hug that my other friends received. What's a girl to think?!?

On a side note, Mr. Emotionally Unavailable e-mailed me this morning to apologize for not getting in touch with me on Friday. He was "having e-mail trouble," which I haven't decided if I believe yet or not. He wants to have lunch this Monday, but I'm not sure what I want (well I know what I want so maybe should is a better term) do. I'm slightly hungover (more dehydrated probably than anything since I only have a headache) with no ibuprofen in the house, which means that I am trying not to think too hard until the headache goes away. Any suggestions on what I should do?!?